Who am I?

Who am I? I often have asked myself this, I know there are a lot of things about myself, things I like probably more things I don't like but I have decided against always being so negative.  This blog used to detail suffering, it was a way to vent when things felt out of control. But so much has changed so its time to look within and figure out just who I am.

Online I go by many personas most know me as Kalari or Nyxy those are my pen and gamer names for writing rpg and the like.  I dunno why those names came to me but I do like them and often answer to them better then my real name *laughs*. Seriously sometimes I feel my imagined characters have it better off then I think, WRONG!

I may not have everything I want in this world yet, still struggling with mental issues, weight issues, life issues. But one thing is true I have more to live for now then I did 10 years ago. I am a mom, small business owner, Podcast host, Journalist, RPG writer and wannabe fiction writer.  I wear a lot of hats yes, but I know which one is most important.

Seven years ago my life changed completely, I was selfish, young stupid trapped in a loveless marriage that I stuck around in for the wrong reasons.  Depression had me near suicidal and even the love of friends who kept me going for awhile was not enough any more.  It took a surprise pregnancy to open my eyes that there is so much more to this life and that I cannot take things for granted. My beautiful son is my world no matter how hard it is at times with him I love every moment I have with him.

3 little witches

Low down Dirty

Time is so short, tonight I started really thinking while trying to get my new website customized what do I Tynisa want to do with myself? I need to get myself back on my feet definitely, thanks to my god parents I am on the road to do that. But I Have a story to finish one that started due to a tragic loss that I want to turn around into something positive. I hope that the fact that unlike other story ideas this one has been with me for a long time now and needs me to write it.  Even if it never takes off I know that is my purpose and I decided to dedicate myself to getting it finished in novel form.  Once its done then I will really know who Tynisa is.

So that's it for now for this new blog post I will try to update daily on whats going on even if things get down maybe writing it out will pick me back up.  Till then I know I have a ton of work to get done to see my goals become reality.  I know I can do this!

My other business ventures- for those interested