Hello out there in blogger land, instead of hawking my business in this blog post im going to get a little personal. After witnessing some discourse at my god parents house I am compelled to write about something that has troubled me for 35 years of my life.
Some people out there never realize what they have till its completely out of their reach. I was raised by my mother without a father in my life, or as involved in my life as little as possible. Sometimes I am angry or bitter when I think about that but most of the time I am just sad.
When I see someone argue with their dad, when I see discord and hear a father talk about tossing a child out I have to wonder how it would feel to them if they did not have that option at all? I know what I would have given to have had a father in my life, and now that my son is being raised only by me I am more so full of regrets.
Having a positive partriach to look up to is something some of us do not get the chance or choice to have in our lives. sometimes fate decides to have men sire us who have no desire to take up the mantle of responsibility. so as I type this if you do have a father in your life, no matter how wrong he can be at times, set in his ways or down right stubborn, remember there are people out there who don't have that an probably will never have it. My biological father died in 2001 taking with him the last chance for us to have any kind of bond or relationship. My son's father has all but disappeared trust me when I say I am going to regret the day he gets to my age and realizes all he missed out on because I feel it a lot of days lately.
Just hug your dad if you read this, let him know that no matter what you love him, because their may come a day where you wont be able to utter it to his face. Cherish what you have because it is more precious then you know.
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